Have you ever walked through a time of darkness? A time when your sight was hindered and you felt numb on the inside? I have, and it is not a pleasant place in which to be. It was as if I was just going through the motions of being a Christian and I seemed to have lost my passion. I even began to allow myself to question and doubt things about God that I had grown up knowing and believing. I knew deep down that the enemy was speaking lies to me and bringing disillusionments to my mind.
Well, I have a testimony about Jesus!
He is so loving, kind, and patient with us and He welcomes our questions. Nothing is too hard for Him. As I continued in Bible study and prayer, God began to gradually illuminate and renew my mind again with His truth and light. But, it was not an easy process or a journey that I would have chosen.
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.” ~ Isaiah 55:8-9
God has allowed me to walk through some really tough life experiences during this last year. Things that I would have NEVER chosen to go through. But God is always faithful! He can take what the enemy means for harm and turn it around and use it for His good. I can truly say that as I continue to travel on this journey and experience things that are very painful and heartbreaking, I can see how God is using this trial to answer the questions and doubts that I had brought before Him. He truly has awakened my heart again with eyes to see who He really is and a passion to love Him wholeheartedly. How crazy is that! As this storm blew into my life, it would have been very easy to become offended and angry at God. I could have run from Him and even fallen into unbelief. But God! He is SO strong and faithful and loving. He truly desires for us to be near Him. He delights in each one of us and lavishes us with His divine love. He revealed Himself as my Rock, my Hiding Place, my Refuge and Strong Tower! He was strong when I was weak!
“I’m holding on to Your divine Love. I’m holding on and I’m not letting go. It’s not my strength, it’s that Your love is strong. It’s not my zeal, it’s that You’re faithful” ~ Jon Thurlow
“My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” ~ James 1:2-4
So, I want to encourage you.
If you find yourself in a place like I was – just going through the motions, lacking the true passion and zeal for God that you once had, a place of disillusionment or doubt – please take my testimony, press in and believe that He is who He says He is. Seek Him with all of your heart and He promises He will be found by you. If you are walking through a trial, please don’t be offended at God. He can use it to bring a divine reversal in your life. If you seek Him, He will not leave you in the dark place.
Jesus really is the TRUE LIGHT that has come into this world. He is the TRUE LIGHT that gives light to every man. And no darkness can hide who He is!
“If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to You; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to You.” ~ Psalm 139:11-12
The painful trial that I am walking through is still very real and remains ever before me, but God has used it to work a miracle in my life. God has used it to open my eyes. Jesus really is The Way, The Truth, and The Life! There is no other way to the Father. And Jesus alone is worthy of my worship. People may try to convince you to look in other places for truth and the enemy may come at you with lies, but I beseech you beloved, to never turn away from God. Nothing else will ever satisfy. Truth and real freedom is only found in trusting in Jesus Christ as Your Redeemer, Savior, Deliverer, and Exceeding Great Reward!
“Thanks be to God for His indescribable Gift!” ~ 2 Corinthians 9:15
That Gift is Jesus Christ! There is no other! He is the altogether lovely One. He is fairer than the sons of men and Chief among ten thousand. He is the Holy One and worthy of all of our thanksgiving and praise, our unending extravagant devotion, and our ceaseless adoration and worship. He is our beautiful Savior that turns our darkness to LIGHT. He can turn things around with just one touch from His Spirit and everything can change in an instant. He makes all things new! I’m still in the middle of my trial, but I will not give up on God. I will continue to seek Him and to stand upon His promises that cannot return void. He is the faithful and true Witness and He cannot tell a lie. So, remember that He really is who He says He is and that nothing is too hard for Him.
“Jesus looked straight at them, and said, “This is something men cannot do. But God can do it. He can do all things.” ~ Mark 10:27
Beloved – Never give up! Cry out to Jesus! During the waiting, call aloud for understanding, wisdom, and revelation!
He will answer you! There is no one like Him!
He is the Great I Am
I Am the bread of life (John 6:35,48)
I Am the light of the world (John 8: 12, 9:5)
I Am the door (John 10:9)
I Am the good shepherd (John 10:11)
I Am the resurrection and the life (John 11:25)
I Am the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6)
I Am the true vine (John 15:1)